Wednesday, June 27, 2012

What I'm loving Wednesday

Good morning sweet friends. It's a lazy morning for me, waking up at 7am to babysit my cousins before school is killing me. So I'm treating myself to a slow moving morning of blogging, drinking coffee and singing to some Lady A.

I'm linking up with Jaime for WILW.

I'm loving that I'm finally catching up on season 3, 4, 5 of Big Bang theory. I forgot how I loved that show.

I'm loving that I finally finished Mockingjay last week!

I'm loving that I craved and bought 50 shades. Oh my gosh, so good but yet so bad!

I'm loving that today is wednesday. Meaning? SYTYCD with the bestie.

I'm loving that Punta Cana 2013 is happening with Karen! April 28, 2013 can't come fast enough! Anyone know of really fun resorts for two pretty girls?!

Laters, baby.


Tuesday, June 26, 2012

My little man is growing up!

Reading his speech

Getting his diploma from Mrs. D

my aunt made this! 

He looked so good!

Last night was my cousin Adam's grade 5 graduation.  Can't believe he'll go to jr. high next year! I texted my aunt yesterday and made a comment how it feels he just started grade 1 yesterday!

Before Adam and his younger sister, Grace were born, I was the youngest in my family so Adam made me an older cousin. And because of that, we share such a close bond. I love the relationship Adam and I have, it's a fun, goofy one but I can also be stern with him. It's a good mix. 

The actual grad brought back so many memories from when I graduated grade 5 because Adam goes to the same elementary school as my dad, brother and myself went too (let's just say they haven't changed the grad program since I left!). Adam's grade 4/5 teacher also taught me grade 5 and Ryan kindergarden and grade 5. Mrs. D is like family to us, it's great. 


Thursday, June 21, 2012

A week in

I can't believe this time last week we found out the worst news ever.

It's been a week of so many emotions. The anger that this is happening to my mom, the frustration because I feel no body understands what I'm going through, the fear that this could be something much worse or god forbid, something could happen to my mom.

Yes, I've questioned a few times why my mom has cancer and not someone else. But that isn't right, no one, even the rapist in jail deserves cancer because someone loves them too.

Today and yesterday have been really good days. I haven't completely sobbed, the type with mascara running down your face and the snot...oh the snot. I don't cry when someone asks me how we are doing or if we need anything. I think this is good.

I guess in a way I've come to accept this. That she has this. Though, I don't want to accept this.

Yesterday my parents met with the surgeon. Mom liked him, which is good. Always good to feel comfortable with the person who will be working on you.

She has her surgery on June 29 and we'll have to wait about 3 weeks to know what treatments she'll have to go through.

For all those who have commented/emailed/tweeted asking how everything is, thank you. Words cannot describe how much that means. Love yo' faces.

Please keep praying!


Wednesday, June 20, 2012

We lost our concert virginity!

One thing people may not know about me is I love country music. Thanks to my brother who used to blast some Shania while I was in bed sleeping. So when I heard back in October that Lady Antebellum was coming to Toronto, I called the bff up and told her we were going. No ifs, ands, or buts. We had to go.

It was perfect timing too, with everything my moms cancer going on. It was awesome to dance and sing all night.

I've never been to a concert before so I was super pumped.

Everything was so good! Seeing my man Darius Rucker just made my night as we will get married one day.

Honestly, I can't put into words how good Lady A was, they kept saying how Toronto was their loudest stop in Canada for the Own the Night Tour...I'm sure they say that in every city.

Now, to find more friends who love country music!


Friday, June 15, 2012

Never thought I would write this post.

(writing this thursday, dinnertime) 

If you read my post from yesterday, I'm sure you got a little taste that something isn't right with me. Or my family.

if that was your guess, then 100 points for you!

I am actually dreading writing this post but I need to write. I have so many feelings going thru my mind that I need to get out.  I know there are people who will read this and could maybe help.

I never thought I would write this post or say these words but it seems God has thrown the Hannon family a curve ball.

My mom, my beautiful 54 year old mother, has breast cancer. 
that killed me to type that. 

As I've been slowly texting and calling friends since yesterday it never gets easier to say "my mom has a horrible disease."

Where to begin?

Well, I guess the start. About a month a go my mom found a lump while getting dressed and after telling my dad/ my gramma, she called to make an appointment with our family doctor. She went in about three days later, he looked around and scheduled her for a biopsy for the next week. At this point, only my dad and gramma knew as my mom didn't want to make a fuss about something we don't know anything 100% about.  I only knew because I am the #1 eavesdropped out there and she didn't want me finding out from eavesdropping.

She told me two days before her biopsy that she was taking the day off work and why. I was calm, not freaking out because we weren't going to get upset when we didn't even know if the "thing" was cancerous or not.  

My dad goes with her and they go in for surgery, take a little bit of the growth off for testing. To see what this actually is.

That was last tuesday (June 5th). She gets home within an hour, rests and goes back to work the next day.

Our doctor said he would call in two weeks with results.

And on wednesday, the doctors office called and asked if she could come in for the next day (thursday, yesterday.)

Wednesday was bad. She kept saying "I have a feeling..." in which I would tell her to stop and whatever it is, we'll deal with it when it comes.

Mom said she couldn't sleep last night and just knew in the bottom of her heart it was cancer.

So, yesterday my dad and mom go to the doctors for 9:30am and I head off to class for my final exam. I wanted to call around 10am during my exam to find out but to be honest, I too knew something was wrong.

I came home around 11:45am and she confirmed it. She has cancer.  We stood in the doorway for about 10 minutes just crying and hugging each other. There is something about this hallway that is always the spot for people to cry and hug.

Thursday afternoon was such a blur. The phones calls, the emails from my ex-boss, family stopping by.

The emotions I have experienced in a few short hours is overwhelming. I'm sad because this is happening, I'm angry and want to blame someone for doing this to my family, TO MY MOM! I've wanted to punch things. I've wanted to just lie down and sleep and wake up and go back to when we weren't the family whos mom has cancer.

Aside from those emotions, the love and support I have felt from my friends and family brings me to tears. Having friends say that they are here for me, to call them anytime means the world. Hearing that my uncle cried when my gramma told him warms my heart.

The amount of "i love yous" that have been said in 6 hours is amazing.

The next step is for my mom to meet with the surgeon next wednesday to go over what will be done during the surgery, if she'll stay overnight etc.

Then in late June she'll have the surgery to hopefully remove this ugly thing.

if you are the praying type, I ask, from the bottom of my heart for you to pray for my mom Sharon, my dad,  as this is killing him to see his wife of 30 years go thru this, myself and my brother Ryan. Love your faces!


Thursday, June 14, 2012


I'm linking up with my girl Jenn over at Perfectly Imperfect for Currently.

Current Book

Yup, still reading it. Goal for next week? Finish it! 

Current Playlist
Some Nights-Fun---best song ever! 
Payphone-Maroon 5
Cold as Stone-Lady A
Friday Night-Lady A

Current Colour
Flip Flop Fantasy by China Glaze. 

Current Outfit
1) my dress from Karen's grad yesterday 
2) Today's outfit. 

Current Drink
Water with lemon. Can't get enough of it. 

Current Tv show

Love this show and love wednesdays

Current Needs
Prayers for my family. 

Current banes of my existence
Come back tomorrow or monday to hear all about it.  

Current celeb crush

This girl. Hillary Scott. Who I'm seeing this saturday! 

Current blessing
My extended family. They are so supportive right now. 

Current Excitement
Seeing Lady A with Karen saturday and being done summer school. 

Current Mood
Scared, worried, sad, angry. 

Go link up with Jenn! 


Friday, June 8, 2012

Friday Letters


~Dear running,

Remember that 15k we have coming up Aug 18? Ya, it's coming up fast, so let's stop getting cramps at 2k and walking home and run much farther than that.
Sincerely, we must rock this race.

~Dear Blogging,
Why is writing still so hard to do!? I need to get out of this rut.
Sincerely, I promise I'm not abandoning my blog.

~Dear good friend MJ (not that MJ..geez guys who do you think I am?!)

I love you but I am so jelly you are in Hawaii for your 20th birthday. Have a mojito (two shots of rum) for me!
Sincerely, I would have gone but dam summer school gets in the way.

~Dear Summer School,

Two more classes. Two more classes. 6 more hours. Till FREEDOM!
Sincerely, it's my summer and I hate walking up at 7:30am for class.

~Dear Mom,

I love you. No worrying until we know for sure.
Sincerely, very vague letter.


Monday, June 4, 2012

The BFF's 1st 5k

I had such a great weekend. My "roomies" aka my parents went to Buffalo early saturday to sunday around dinnertime, so it was nice to have the house to myself. Karen came over and we watched the vow, stayed up till 2am and enjoyed some adult drinks.

But...the best thing this weekend was that Karen ran her first 5k! *

She ran the whole thing without stopping in 30:34. I on the hand kept getting really bad cramps. The ones where it hurt to exhale and when we got to the biggest hill at the finish line I needed to walk.

I finished in 30:58, not my best time but I am so glad to run it with karen.

So proud ofher!

*Karen has never been active at all and when she said she wanted to run a 5k I told her to download couch to 5k app. She went from not being able to run 3 minutes straight, looking at the next few weeks plans and being so afraid of not being able to run for 6 minutes straight to now running  5k in 30 minutes.

If you are thinking of running a 5k, download this app. It is amazing. Just give yourself 8-9 weeks and you''ll be there.